“It was the best of times it was the worst of times”
– Charles Dickens
As 55 closes out, so I experience the greatest challenge and the greatest blessings, perhaps of my entire lifetime as a life-long chronic health condition suddenly reaches new heights. Faced with absurd discomfort and virtually no sleep for weeks, I’m forced to rise to a new level and indeed a “new level” is exactly what I find. The lack of sleep, bouts of extreme discomfort, and not skipping a beat as a full time medium – OK, I proved I’m strong but how long till the body crashes? Time to call on the gift of Western Medicine for relief and take a course of Prednisone. Worried because it blocks my intuition, I ask Spirit and get an overwhelming “yes”. Got to do what I got to do. I have to say what was to follow was shockingly unexpected to say the least.
The side effects were hard but a journey through altered states of consciousness results in yielding incredible insights about the nature of my life, the nature of my disease, the nature of Spirit and the experience of my “first flash of freedom”, especially during my Yoga and meditation sessions. Then there’s Mediumship development. That’s the big one. Perhaps the work with teachers Sharon Anne Klingler and more recently Janet Nohavec planted the seeds for the quantum leap that is closing out 55 but here it is: For years I’ve felt frustrated with my work; locked into the same “level” while having flashes of what my “next level” would look like only to find it all too elusive in the end and just out of reach. Frustrated that I seem to not progress while my well-meaning colleagues, and even my teachers, would tell me how great and how talented I was, I believed them and continue to do the best work I knew how. But alas, a new level is finally emerging and if that development continues on course it won’t be long until I start telling myself, “I wasn’t even doing mediumship all those years” (and to think this is all unfolding while going through illness as well as being on a drug that interferes with the alpha/theta brain wave state necessary for mediumship). Not to misunderstand, Spirit never failed to give me great evidence and specific information in the past… but this is different. More “mature” I’d say as, rather than picking up a series of scattered hits with a few messages thrown in for good measure, story lines are starting to emerge with the evidence getting tighter and more specific. There is a beginning, middle and end to the communications now and they are starting to follow a flow rather than come out in scattered statements, and the messages and information are starting to have a habit of hitting those key points that can really change lives with uncanny precision. For good measure Spirit started giving me some of the hardest cases and difficult clients, all in a row it seems. Every time I’ve broken through with flying colors and created absolute breakthroughs for my clients whereas in the past the reading would have fallen short.
The feeling that I am currently being groomed for something higher is massive. In my meditations and periods of introspection I found the underlying energetic link that is responsible for changing everything. The best translation into words for this would be: Mediumship is NOT about talking to the dead but rather a complete and utter embrace of the glory of Spirit in all her divine expressions. It is being the healer and teacher, it is validating the continuity of life and most importantly it is BEING Spirit – being that shining example that we are all Spirit and all of life is sacred. To know this intellectually is important but to actually experience it’s resonance is life changing, and once I got it everything started to change and nothing will ever be the same ever again.
OK, not a bad way to close out 55 as I stand on the edge of 56….
